percylove

So all I ever draw anymore are chibis ..... XP they're quick, fun, and cute.     but...

I miss drawing my OCs. But I feel so incredibly rusty that I almost feel...too far drifted to go back?
I would still love to keep drawing my OCs, make them better, tell their story...but its getting harder and harder. I want their story to be a certain way and it keeps changing in my head.
My OCs are not attending my head-space as often as they used to, making it hard to get a grip of where they want to go. Still there, just kinda floating around occasionally.

I don't regret getting into cosplay because it's something that I really really enjoy. I get to make stuff! I get to create something from a 2D image and make it into a reality. I get to work with different mediums and explore other art forms. I love working on cosplays! I'm pretty much self taught in a lot of things I do - cosplay is no different.

I will be trying my best this year to not lose my OCs. I still want to draw them. I still love them! I still want to draw and get better and improve! ....it just may not be at a rate that I would like. It'll be slow going at this rate.. but I need to accept that. Which is a bit hard for me.

Is anyone interested in buying Kairi's Keyblade?!

I have a friend who is looking to sell her keyblade in order to get money for Boston Comic Con!
Let me know if you're interested and I can get more details!

So here's some pics from the con! All of Friday thru Sunday!
And here are pics from the Kingdom Hearts Photoshoot Saturday and Sunday!
and also someone's footage of the Masquerade Hall Cosplay walk-ons!

• So biggest highlight was winning FIRST place in the Intermediate Hall Cosplay Contest!!!!
  I had entered into the Novice division (because I havent won any awards and I'm still fairly new to this whole competition thing, this being my 2nd time doing so). So we're sitting in our spots during the masquerade for our walk-ons, enjoying the rest of the masquerade.. then one of the staff members comes to us and tells us we won something! she said she wasnt going to say what place, but we got something. So after the shock, I figured we probably just won like runner-up for Novice - because there were some Amazing other cosplayers! So they announced/displayed the winners for the Hall Contest. well we didn't see our name/picture come up for novice runner up or 1st, so I was a bit confused. Then we see it come up for First Place Intermediate! BIGGER SHOCK! For the rest of the night I was just still in shock and it didn't sink in that we won! I felt a bit teary eyed on the way home that night!
  

• The judges
  So apparently the judges remembered us from last year and they just seemed to be very impressed with our presentation. I handed them binders that they could keep that had our reference pictures, W.I.P. pics of both costumes and props, fabric samples and a thank you page at the end. And they were just like: WOW, this is so thorough!
  One of them found me after the masquerade and explained why they had bumped us up into intermediate. I guess there was a lot of entries for novice, but not a whole lot for Intermediate. and they remembered us from last year and liked us last year, but didnt remember if we won something. and they thought it was a lil unfair balance between the 2 divisions. And she said she looks forward to seeing us for next year! I fricken love those judges

• Prop malfunctions
  So on Friday, at some point, I accidentally dropped my keyblade and it breaks by the handle. I couldnt believe I did that... I had a small repair kit on me, but just regular old crazy glue does not work on wood. XP So we take a trip down to Cosplay Repair Station. THANK THE GODS FOR THE REPAIR STATION! So I used hot glue to glue the 2 pieces together and some clear packaging tape to make sure it holds together.
  Later on during the SAME day, my husband accidentally drops it! this time, by the blade end, the pointy bits. So... take ANOTHER trip down to the repair center and do the same thing - hot glue and blue tape that matched the color pretty well! It held up pretty damn well surprisingly! No more incidents happened and didn't have to go back to the repair center!
  Couple breaks didn't get my spirits down - they got fixed, it'll be fine. I may properly repair with some wood glue/wood filler later in the future... but for now, they're good.

• Greg Ayres
  So finally got to get signatures from Guest Voice Actor Greg Ayres! I was sooo close last year and then a couple years ago, I wasnt able to attend his autograph panel (I think it was during the masquerade), but I did end up giving him a couple chibis that I drew (Heihachi-Samurai 7 and the Hitachin twins - Ouran High). So we told him that we've been trying to see him for a couple years and he said that he remembers the chibis from before! and he couldn't decide which one he liked this year - Hiwatari because he was cute/pouty or Shion because he was cute/full of character! He was excited to get his own copies too He is awesome!

• Birthday!!
  So I turned 27 this year! I feel like an old fart! lol Since it was also Anime Boston weekend, I kept forgetting it was my birthday! There was just so much going on!
  I did get to pick out some gifts at the dealers room tho! I got a cute lil blue fox plushie, some Kingdom Hearts window decals, and a Foxhound (Metal Gear) pin!
  I also got an awesome tiger t-shirt from my parents, with some chocolate, cupcakes, and a cute spotted tank top, and FFX/X-2 HD collection from my sister! (Yay for future references!)
  Then we got to out to dinner with my family on Sunday night when we got back from the convention. It was a good birthday
  

• ...Next Year?
  So a friend of mine wants to cosplay from RWBY next year. I've heard of it, but have not yet watched it. (Tho I will!!!) So we might join her with that idea and do a whole group. The only thing is that we wouldn't be able to compete with those costumes because with Anime Boston, it has to be Japanese originated, which RWBY is not unless we do a costume for RWBY for chilling out at the con and create another one to compete in... but idk. But I really really like the idea of PJ Sunday!! And have Nick wear footy pajamas! and have pillow fights!! That would be awesome!!
  Then I have some other friends who want to do a FFX/X-2 big group next year or in a couple years. My husband Nick wants to do Yojimbo and I want to do Beastmaster Yuna. I have 2 friends that started this idea and now 2 more that want to join in on it! I know the ones that started the idea really have no sewing/cosplay skills, so I think I'm going to be making them both for them.... which may be a bit difficult seeing as they're so far away. and my other friend who wants to join in, i know she has some? sewing skills? yes? no? I don't know? But I'm not sure if they want me to make theirs tooo....? If I made all of them, everyone would look fabulous lol! but that is a SHIT TON of work! Just doing my own and my husband's costumes took about 7-8 months on/off.
  Or who knows, we may just spruce up Gilgamesh and Zidane and do different versions of them. like do Dissidia's version of Giglamesh and do Alexandrian soldier Zidane! Cause that was a thought too.
  Everything is pretty much all up in the air. So we'll see what we can do! I really want to do a big group cosplay together with friends, because friends are awesome! But I am really pretty excited for next year and the years to come and to continue to compete and get better with cosplays and just have fun!

...so yeah. That's what's up.

so, i've been super busy lately with working on 2 cosplays for Anime Boston 2014 in March. I'm also entered into the Hall Cosplay Contest; which I have mixed emotions about. I entered last year and I was really proud of what I did with Zidane and Gilgamesh, but we didn't win. It was still super fun to compete, but still raised the question of why? more like: what did so-n-so do that got them those extra points? what can I do for next time? what did I not do? doubt, doubt, doubt....
This year I'm competing again, but I've looked at a couple tips about cosplay competing. so hopefully I can get my shit together and at least present it better. But as I am getting closer and closer to my deadline, I'm getting worried. That things aren't good enough. That things will get caught in something, rip off, come apart, get ruined..all that fun stuff.. before I get judged. and I'll most likely have a breakdown of pissy sadness.
I know it seems like I'm being a whiny bitch about wanting to win so bad...but.. it's a competition. yes, it's fun... yes you get to try your hardest and get better at your skill...but it's a competition and you go in it to win. but it just feels that I just want recognition for things I do. I feel I don't get that. with anything really...with my drawing, sewing, cosplay, or other arts/crafts I do.

but anywho, it's why I haven't been submitting much of anything lately. To be honest, I really haven't been drawing much AT ALL!! which is depressing. because it brings up the question of what I want to do with my life. What art form do I want to do...(and I think I've made a complete rand on this topic before)? And I just don't know. I. Don't. Know.

I don't know what I'm looking for. I just really want am art friend that will give me hugs when I'm down like this and then smack me in the face to tell me I'm being a dumb bitch. I want someone to hang out with - to draw with, to sew with, make cosplays together.. but nobody lives near me.

I've met some really artsy people by being in the SCA, but it's not in the style of artwork that I wanted to do.. and there is a huge age gap where it it feels a little uncomfortable for me to just 'hang' out with. they're super nice people and i love seeing them, but it's not like they're into anime/manga or things that I'm into. So there's that connection lost. It also doesn't help when they live far away and its a bit inconvenient to drive an hour or more away.

I'm gonna stop ranting now... so yeah. i just don't know what I'm looking for. I'm just kinda going along, lost. been kinda wandering around for a while and i'm just getting tired of going around in circles, not progressing.. so i've just been sitting here. in place. not doing anything about it and waiting for someone to come help me. when i feel like i've been trying to ask for some help or the slightest attention and i get ignored...so i give up trying to look to others for help and try again on my own, just to keep going round in circles. then i give up on myself and try looking to others again... and still get ignored.. it's a viscous endless circle i've been in for quite a while. and it sucks.

comment and let me check out your characters!

also, here are the rules even though i'm sure most of you know how this works by now
but here they are

rules

1. For the first 15 people who comment on this journal, I will feature one of their characters. [I will go to your gallery and pick one character, you don't need to tell me which one]
2. If you comment, please do the same in your journal, and put me in the first feature slot. The idea of this is not to get a free feature, it is to spread art around for everyone!

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I'm really starting to like Silver All the details in this piece is so awesome and pretty!!

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I think this time, I will choose the cutie Korhann! I especially like him with kitty ears/tail! So cute!

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Tossup between Ginger and Rimmy
I enjoyed drawing these two a lot! Love their design!

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